Final+Semester+Essay

Life. What is the Real meaning of life? Well I know the dictionary gives us a reason, but I don’t believe there is a true meaning to life. I think that life is just what you make it, not what somebody thinks it should be… But then there is high school where if you don’t fallow a certain way of life you are judged on how you do live it. As a certain senior I know decided to call this… “The high school rules.” Which I think is very stupid but, what are you going to do, either live by those rules or in the end get screwed over.

When I started high school here at Foothill I was a little nervous, but only because I didn’t know that many people. I was hoping for something completely different than middle school because I hated middle school very much… but when I got here I realized it was the exact same thing except there were older people. Since they were older I was hoping they would be more mature, turns out I was completely wrong. After being here for the first semester they are just as bad. All the same things, rude, annoying, and immature just as bad as middle school. Though I have to admit being around older people is kind of nice instead of only older people.

As far as academics go, I still highly dis like school. I’m not very good at geometry, but I am studying and trying to do what I can to get better. As far as the rest of my classes go I’m doing pretty good I have all A’s and B’s in all my other classes. My favorite part of “academics” is the sport that I’m doing. I have started playing softball at Ventura high school and I really have enjoyed it so far. It has been a place for me to get away from all the drama and made it easier for me to escape where I can still be around people that I enjoy. I am so excited for the season to start in a few weeks, so we can play actual games instead of just practicing. English is one of my sort of stronger subjects, but only because we tend to make the class interesting. The one problem with it is, I absolutely hate reading, and I dis like writing, but I have learned to get over that. My English class probably wouldn’t be nearly as interesting if it was not my 7th period class. Soon it won’t be my 7th period anymore, because I am switching to softball. Though I am sad about being switched out of 7th I am happy it is for softball. I have also been doing tutoring with younger kids that are in middle school. So doing that also gives me extra help on keeping my memory refreshed. Not only does it keep my memory refreshed, but it gives me a chance to get hours for community service. I like doing this for community service because I always feel like I am helping someone with something. I hope to get a lot of my hours done by doing this. So, with academics that is all I have to say. My school and my social life (friends) are completely different, but my two different groups of friends are also hardly related. My two different groups of friends are my “foothill friends” and my real friends. I know how that sounds bad, but it’s the truth. The only difference between them is that with my foothill friends I only like to hang out with them at school, I will occasionally hang out with them out side of school, but not very often, that doesn’t mean that I don’t like them though I really like them. I just prefer to not hang out with them outside of school. With my real friends, they are the ones that I wove to hang out with out side of school and I love being around. I think that I like hanging out with these people outside of school because I rarely get to see them so its kind of hard to get sick of them when I only see them two out of 7 days a week.

Everyone and anyone who knows me, knows that I love to talk whether it’s with someone in person or texting, either way it doesn’t matter to me. I love talking to people, most the time I get along with people I try to be welcoming to the idea of meeting new people, but being honest I like to meet new people, but a lot of the time I don’t really keep them as friends. So now I am going to talk to you about my friends that I have made, kept, or lost during my freshman year. Through out this year I sadly a lot of drama has gone on. I have had lots of ups and downs, kinda like a roller coaster. This roller coaster has gone on with many things in my life, but mostly it has gone on with my friends, during some of the downs I even lost a few. The fact that I lost them though just shows we weren’t really the friends we thought we were. But then there’s the friends I have made since this year has started. Some of them have come to be some of my really good friends, I have come to really love being around them. Aside from the friends I have made and lost through this year, there is one friend of mine that really stands out, out of all my friends she is my best friend. She is amazing, hilarious, and perfect. I have known her since 4th grade. In the past year we went through A LOT, some good, some not so good. In the end though, she really is my best friend.

Your probably wondering who this girl is that I am describing. Well, her name is Paige Marie Padilla. We met in 4th grade and it’s like when we met we had an automatic connection, like fireworks went off. We stayed very close from 4th grade all the way to 8th. Then something happened in the middle of 8th we started to fade away from each other because I started hanging out with a girl, who I guess you could say was pretty much replacing Paige for the time being. It ended up that I really wasn’t going to be best friends with this girl like I was with Paige, but I should have known that from the beginning. I realized that her and I just didn’t have the connection I had with Paige. After me and Paige reconnected, we had a huge downfall because she went behind my back, and made me lose a lot of friends because of a lie she had spread and for that time being I spent my time with someone else who I came extremely close with, but that’s another story. Paige finally came forward and apologized to me and told everybody that it was just a lie and I know doing that took a lot of courage for her to do, so I forgave her. I was still really close with the other girl though so I wasn’t really hanging out with Paige. The other changed the kind of person she was so I decided to go back to my real best friend. Paige and I started hanging out again and slowly came back to the best friends we were before. When school was starting is when really started o get close I spend every single weekend with her and I love being around her for that long. I was so scared that separate schools would separate us, but it brought us closer and I’m so happy it did. I love her so much; I don’t know what I would do without her in my life. There is also my best friend Raegan who I have known since I was in preschool. We do not fight that often, but even when it does happen it doesn't matter because everything will always turn out okay. We had times where we were separated for a long time. When we are separated it was very weird, because when we lose contact, we have to catch up on everything that we missed out. It makes it fun to catch up but also very awkward. Either way she is perfect amazing and beautiful. I love her so much I don't even consider her a friend its more of a sister.

So far what I have told you has been “mostly” good about my friends, or at least had a happy ending. Well, sorry to bring the mood down, but I have also had a very bad experience with one of my closest friends this year. She was my best friend for a while, the she started to change. She didn’t just change her looks though, she changed her everything in to a different a person that I couldn’t even recognize as her anymore. She is now a person I don’t want anything to do with, she only gets herself and I in trouble which is not at all what I need in my first year of high school. So, I decided to tell her that, I would always be here for her, but I just don’t really want to be friends until she found who she really was, if she decided that person she changed to was the person she thought she really was then so be it., but I know I was/ still am hoping that she will find the beautiful, amazing person I know she really is. At one point she found the old her inside and changed back. I have to admit I loved having my old friend back, but it didn’t last long before she went back to making bad decisions. I finally came to the realization she wasn’t going to change anytime soon. I miss her very much, but I would miss her a lot more if she went back to the person I was best friends with, I wish she was. I know one day she will realize that she is not this person who I see today. When that day comes I can’t wait to be there to be her friend again. Like I told her I will always be here for her, love her, and miss her.

So there you have it. That is how my best/ worst friendships of my freshman year so far. That’s not all though, I have made some new friends this year. Some I realized were never really my friends, others I have become very close with. Those people are Shannon king, Jessica Ahmed, Shelly Boyd, Lindsey Cox, Darren Viles, Kayla lee, Anika Hernandez, Michael Booth, Ally Vanatta & others. Im just not as close with the other ones like I am with the ones that I named. Either way whether I named them or not I’m so happy I met them this year I love them all equally. My friends are a huge part of my life because they are always there for me when I need them. I always do the same for them, I love the feeling I get when I’m there for someone who needs me and just to let them know I am here for them and here to comfort them. It brings me happiness to know that I made them feel better. I didn’t have these people in my life, I would be lost. They mean so much to me. I love them all and hope to not lose them as friends. Family… What is family? Well a family is a group of people who will always unconditionally love each other, through this crazy roller coast we like to call life. No matter what happens between them, they stick together. That is exactly how I would describe my family. This first semester, my family has gone through a lot, definitely more than we wish we did. It has taken a lot of strength, love, and care from all of us. Through it all we have stuck together. The experiences we went through are hard things for anyone to have to go through, but for my family these brought us all to a better understanding of what we need to work on so we don’t argue so much.

My older sister Kyrstin and I had started to get along when I was in about 7th or 8th grade but since we started going to the same school it has brought us a lot closer, I really like that it has to I love being around her. I love my sister so much, she is like a best friend to me. She is 16 years old, blonde h air, green eyes, and beautiful, she is anything a guy could ever want. She is also everything I have always wanted to be. Ever since I was a little girl, even when we didn’t get along I always want to be like her when I grew up. I just might be getting close to having that, I feel like the older I get and the closer we get the more I start to be like her. Like I have always wanted.

Then there is my little brother Evan. He is WAY different story than Kyrstin. He is 6 years younger than me which leaves him at 8 years old. Yes, I do love him because he is my family even though I highly dis like him sometimes, because he is a huge pain in my butt. Since he is my family though I will always love him no matter what. There is a certain time when we get along great.. that is when we are playing Call of Duty together on the Xbox. We get along worst when he is asking me to do anything for him, that’s when things go bad between us. Now, For my favorite of all, my baby sister Kyra. Who is only 3 years old and she is the most amazing miracle that has ever happened to me, I have watched her transform from a new born to just a baby, to now a toddler and watching it all has been such a fun experience. She beautiful and I treat her as my own. Of course she can get on my nerves, but isn’t that the job of a younger sibling? But no matter what I don’t care she is the best thing I could ever ask for. She always listens to me, even though she doesn’t know half of what I am saying. She know how to make me smile. I love her more than anything or anymore. I would take my life before hers in a heartbeat. She is my everything, my baby, my world.

All in all, yes I have had down falls this year. In the end though everything was done for the best, and I have to admit this year has gone a hell of a lot better than I thought it would. I love all the people that are around me now and the person I am slowly trying to become. Mostly I am just loving life and trying to do everything I can to take advantage of the little time of youth that I have and TRYING to not let drama get in the way of that. I have learned to not let things bring me down. I always keep my head up, even when placed in the worst situations. I know life isn’t perfect, but nothing is ever really perfect. We all strive for perfection, but perfection is something that is unreachable, and unrealistic. Truth is being yourself is what makes you perfect. Don’t change who you really are for anybody, because if you do, it was never meant if you have to change you to please them. Personally I like to fallow the saying “imperfect is the real perfect” I fallow this because I truly believe this is the truth. I think everyone should realize this and take it in to consideration. The sole purpose of life is not to please others and their opinions. The real sole purpose is to come to peace and happiness with yourself. Not only your appearance though, you should also love you are on the inside. Just remember to never change for anyone, because your born how you were for a reason. Your are perfect no matter what anyone says. Love yourself for who you are and someday, someone else will too.